Home is behind, the world ahead, and there are many paths to tread...
Seeing you realize that this is all coming to a close touches my heart. I know the feeling. I was here six months ago. Awaiting every expectant moment, wanting to know that you've passed or claimed your rightful place you've striven for in these last four years, or more. Knowing that it's all worth it. It heartens me that finally, we can all share in this thing I alone had for this time. Yes, you could say that I had the "First Mover Advantage" (Marketing much?!), but we all have our unique traits. Survive these few months floundering for that first grip into The Real World. Strive to show we're all worthy of that four years of pain, sleepless nights and institutional pride. Succeed in our chosen fields and forget not our friends, where we came from and how they shaped us to be this way. We may be all unique as people, but now we share one common bond.
Mist and shadow, cloud and shade, away shall fade, away shall fade...
Monday, March 16, 2009
Thursday, March 12, 2009
Issues, Issues and Lessons Learned
Can you feel the pressure...
I absolutely hate screwing up. The lessons you get from them hurt the most and are the ones you remember in your life. I feel like I just failed my colleagues, but I know I did my best to make it work. It's quite my fault I wasn't prepared both physically and mentally for it to come today. Now that I have a good idea on what to do and how to do it, I'll make sure not to have it happen again. I hope I'm able not just to explain my actions, but learn on how to mitigate or remove the issues I had with my work.
Learning through action, and leadership by example, a painful and difficult path, but ultimately most beneficial to your well being.
I absolutely hate screwing up. The lessons you get from them hurt the most and are the ones you remember in your life. I feel like I just failed my colleagues, but I know I did my best to make it work. It's quite my fault I wasn't prepared both physically and mentally for it to come today. Now that I have a good idea on what to do and how to do it, I'll make sure not to have it happen again. I hope I'm able not just to explain my actions, but learn on how to mitigate or remove the issues I had with my work.
Learning through action, and leadership by example, a painful and difficult path, but ultimately most beneficial to your well being.
Tuesday, February 17, 2009
Long Walk to Glory
Some things seem like forever, others like a moment.
Sixty-seven days. And here I am, feeling like the past one hundred and twenty three days since it happened for me has not really changed me. Sixty seven days, when everyone else will be on the same level as I am. And here I am still seemingly undisturbed, not making the most of it. At least we can start over as equals again, sharing the same things even as we diverge in our paths in life. We'll make up for lost moments. I guess I did deprive myself with my choices of certain things, and I traded them for others. Only time will tell if they are worth it. Until the sixty-seventh day comes, we shall not know.
Hell, Yeah, It's ABOUT TIME!
Sixty-seven days. And here I am, feeling like the past one hundred and twenty three days since it happened for me has not really changed me. Sixty seven days, when everyone else will be on the same level as I am. And here I am still seemingly undisturbed, not making the most of it. At least we can start over as equals again, sharing the same things even as we diverge in our paths in life. We'll make up for lost moments. I guess I did deprive myself with my choices of certain things, and I traded them for others. Only time will tell if they are worth it. Until the sixty-seventh day comes, we shall not know.
Hell, Yeah, It's ABOUT TIME!
Wednesday, February 11, 2009
I Just Don't Love You Anymore
Just when everything has been forgotten and passed...
My ex just contacted me a few minutes ago via text message. Right now I'm still quite displeased by its occurrence. You betrayed me, and you have the gall to ask me to talk to you? Damn it, I've moved on from you, yet doing this to pull me back is just so desperate from your part. Your lies will not weave their magic anymore on me, bitch. So go back and seduce whoever you can still blind with your words. It's just fucking ironic you want to talk to me on the most over-hyped of days for romance and affection. This is not bitterness talking, but the cold hard reality that I don't feel anything for you anymore. I won't apologize for the words I used. You deserve them all.
It's been a while. Since I've felt this alive.
My ex just contacted me a few minutes ago via text message. Right now I'm still quite displeased by its occurrence. You betrayed me, and you have the gall to ask me to talk to you? Damn it, I've moved on from you, yet doing this to pull me back is just so desperate from your part. Your lies will not weave their magic anymore on me, bitch. So go back and seduce whoever you can still blind with your words. It's just fucking ironic you want to talk to me on the most over-hyped of days for romance and affection. This is not bitterness talking, but the cold hard reality that I don't feel anything for you anymore. I won't apologize for the words I used. You deserve them all.
It's been a while. Since I've felt this alive.
Monday, January 26, 2009
School Nostalgia
Time, I've been passing time...
I miss UP and BA. But I won't cry or be sentimental about it. Graduation ceremonies, maybe then, it's more appropriate. There's always a right time for things.
Truly caring for something makes you miss it when it's gone
I miss UP and BA. But I won't cry or be sentimental about it. Graduation ceremonies, maybe then, it's more appropriate. There's always a right time for things.
Truly caring for something makes you miss it when it's gone
Tuesday, January 13, 2009
Contrition and Reflection
Sorry seems to be the hardest word.
What do I do when it's all over. What can I do to be heard. I've screwed it up quite badly and I it will take time, before, if ever, trust is restored. I'm sorry for being an asshole and a stuck-up pretentious twit. I'll have to know how to say my apologies quicker before a screw up like this happens again. What has happened makes me realize that I should care more about people, at the very least those I've encountered. Insensitive and insensible person that I typically am, this kind of change can't come quickly, but it will have to happen, lest my mistakes haunt me at a more crucial and difficult time.
If I've offended or pissed you off during the last 3 years, consider this as a first step towards a personal apology. If you can't/won't accept it, I'll understand, but I'd like to reconcile myself with the things I can and cannot change. Those I can change, will have to start moving in that direction, and already are.
P.S. I managed to salvage most of this from a cache.
That's what you get when you let... drown out all my senses.
What do I do when it's all over. What can I do to be heard. I've screwed it up quite badly and I it will take time, before, if ever, trust is restored. I'm sorry for being an asshole and a stuck-up pretentious twit. I'll have to know how to say my apologies quicker before a screw up like this happens again. What has happened makes me realize that I should care more about people, at the very least those I've encountered. Insensitive and insensible person that I typically am, this kind of change can't come quickly, but it will have to happen, lest my mistakes haunt me at a more crucial and difficult time.
If I've offended or pissed you off during the last 3 years, consider this as a first step towards a personal apology. If you can't/won't accept it, I'll understand, but I'd like to reconcile myself with the things I can and cannot change. Those I can change, will have to start moving in that direction, and already are.
P.S. I managed to salvage most of this from a cache.
That's what you get when you let... drown out all my senses.
Friday, January 9, 2009
Random Rant
Shit happens
I was saving a really emotional and heart-rending post for me about changing for the better when I tried to save it as a draft. Problem is, Media Locker screws up and won't let me access the draft. Absolutely great. If I can't get to it, I'll have to find the right words again. The process of breaking myself down and rebuilding myself is painful; but I think it's penance for me to actually do that more than once. I think I deserve it.
Live with it.
I was saving a really emotional and heart-rending post for me about changing for the better when I tried to save it as a draft. Problem is, Media Locker screws up and won't let me access the draft. Absolutely great. If I can't get to it, I'll have to find the right words again. The process of breaking myself down and rebuilding myself is painful; but I think it's penance for me to actually do that more than once. I think I deserve it.
Live with it.
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